That is what they say, isn't it? And a picture is worth a thousand words, right? So what do these say?
I've been worried about Apani for some time now. Even before she turned 2. When I mentioned it to her pediatrician, she seemed shocked, so I let it go. I tried to convince myself that she was just so smart that she would easily become bored. We bought lots of puzzles. Around 15 months, she was putting them together ... 24 pieces. Her vocabulary went beyond 200 words before she was 18 months and forming sentences. I started a list but couldn't keep up with her. She absorbed everything and never forgets.
The months passed and I tried not to think about it. I had to stop comparing her to Kaity, maybe that was the real problem. They're just polar opposites. A few months before her third birthday, she told my mother, "I want to cut your head off and put it in a box." Yes she was joking, but where does a 2 year old get that? She told me she didn't like to see people happy and several other things, I can't get into it all. I decided I couldn't ignore my feelings anymore.
I found a forum and asked some questions. But it was nearing the deadline for early intervention. In NY it ends at 3 years and no one was returning my calls. She turned 3 without finding any help.
My little girl is not happy. When I look at those pictures, my heart aches. That is what I see every day. I joke around that she has inner demons, but she is seriously tormented by something. I feel like I've tried everything but nothing is working. I became a Nanny911 and SuperNanny junkie. They didn't help much and I found that watching it with the girls only added fuel to the fire.
I asked around my local yahoo group and found some numbers. My biggest fear is not finding someone I could trust. I don't want her medicated for no reason and I don't want to be told something is wrong just so that another check is put into a person's pocket. Well, Sunday, I spoke to a friend in the nursing mother's room. I don't know why, but I asked her a few questions and it turns out she worked in Early Intervention with children 0-5!! I'm so excited! Not to put any pressure on her, but I look forward to speaking with her in more depth and utilizing whatever strategies she has for us.
On another happy note
2 out of three ain't so bad!
7 comments:
Oh Kelly i hope i can help you in any way....
As far as I know, my husband is still your Home Teacher. Maybe he can assist your father in giving Apani a Priesthood Blessing. Also, call the Manhattan Temple and have her name placed on the prayer roll. It stays on there for two consecutive weeks.
I have heard that some of this kind of behavior (depression?) is hereditary, but I hope this isn't the case. I have also heard that this kind of behavior comes from children with a very high IQ, in which case she could probably benefit from counseling. But maybe it's just all about not being a baby anymore and becoming the middle child; a phase and will simply grow out of it someday.
I have another thought, perhaps she is simply picking it up from someone, somewhere, an unusual book or show on TV. Maybe all you need to do is ask her where she heard it. Find the source and nip it in the bud. Kids really do say the darnedest things; cute and sometimes unusual.
Oh Kelly, Apani is a very blessed little girl to have a mother who cares so much about her. I have a quote on my wall that says,
"To be a mother is to know your heart will forever walk outside your body."
Isn't it the truth???
P.S. Dude, I had no idea Apani was THAT smart! Her language development is phenomenal!
I wish it was a phase, Martha. We started noticing things probably around 14 months. She talks in her sleep, even in her dreams, she's miserable!
It's comforting to have everyone's support though! Thanks!! I love you guys!
Those pictures ARE heartbreaking! Your girls are beautiful. They're lucky to have you as a mom. I hope things work out with your "specialist."
Oh I love the pictures! They are beautiful! I pray if there IS something wrong with Apani, they can figure it out and she can get help..... and if there isn't anything wrong, I pray the Lord will help you figure out how to put a smile on her face! I love you girl!!!! you are in my prayers!
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